In August I began teaching full time at Meacham middle school as an 8th grade English Language Arts teacher. Everyone talked about how for low socioeconomic schools, the kids at Meacham were really good…and then a few days before school began I started hearing how horrible the incoming 8th grade class was. Fast forward to now and I am struggling harder than I ever have in my life. I ran back to God after letting him drift out of my life a few months ago, and I know he put me here for that purpose. But, I hate my life so much right now. I struggle everyday to get out of bed and go to work. The kids put me through hell and back again each day and I’v never been so done with a commitment. I’ve almost quit 20 times, but something has pushed me to stay. I don’t know how much longer I can hold on. I know these kids need me, but I honestly don’t think I can do it much longer. Please pray that I can last in my job until at least the end of this semester. I just don’t know if I can hold on.