So, I just realized that I don’t actually love God... and that I can’t love Him... And yet He still commands me to obey. I felt like I could obey because God loved me, yet Jesus said “If you live Me, keep My commandments.” I feel frustrated, because I’m supposed to obey, but I can’t. It’s like I’m going around in circles. And if I don’t truly love God, then I’ve never actually loved my family or my friends. And I must really be faithless, hopeless, heartless, worthless.