I feel very weak today. My wife had left me and told me that she has met someone since leaving me. She said that he treats her better than I ever did. I have my flaws, and I’ve made plenty mistakes. But I love her still with all that I am. I think about her all the time and pray for her all the time. I keep praying that God will guide her home. There have been many days when I’ve lost the will to live. Today is one of those days. I feel lost and lonely. I pray and try to be strong, but the negative thoughts and emotions sometimes get the best of me. I feel overwhelmed today.
I’m new to this area and have no friends or family nearby. The thought of living the rest of my life alone terrifies me.
Please, God, deliver me from this pain. Please heal our hearts. Please give me the strength and faith to trust You and Your will for us, for her, and for me. God I can’t handle anymore.